GOD, I MISS YOU

I think about you a lot. I miss you so much, God. I look around, trying to find my way in, and I can’t see. I cry on the floor asking for forgiveness. I know I left you and went down a bad path, I want you back. I need you back. But all I see and hear is chaos. I try to go to church, but I don’t feel you. I have even gone back to the church I hate, and you aren’t there. Where are you? I miss you! I have prayed for your light, and still nothing. I don’t want to think that you don’t exist, but I feel like you aren’t there. You are like a fairytale. You are right next to Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy. I am losing faith that you are real. I am exhausted waiting and seeking you. I know the bible tells us that even in the silence, you are there and that you will answer when the time is right, but I have been waiting for years. I am losing you. So, I scream out one more prayer. GOD, I ASK FOR YOUR FORGIVENESS, BRING ME CLOSER TO YOU, SHOW ME THE WAY! PLEASE!